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11/23/2009 外婆们的菜--by南池子见过人恨爹恨妈恨社会班主任初恋女朋友，但恨外婆的似乎稀罕。大概慈母大人的慈母大人等于慈母大人的平方，又不像爷爷奶奶有培养孙子安邦定国维护世界和平的大欲望，无欲则刚，因此我周遭朋友连我在内，都比较亲外婆。不只中国，全世界电影里某些反社会反人类的机关枪男人，一般回忆往事时也都酷酷的来一句，我外婆当年如何如何。
很多往事重提，尤其是对于一个一年和父母共处几天、其余时间都和外婆们消磨的人而言，如今才知道这样的口福是前世最好的恩赐。 9/1/2009 又见秋天又見秋天。奧運那年的初秋在北京，當時正處奧運和殘奧的間隙。天空很藍，地鐵和公交很便宜。雨中的北海公園有些黯淡，深巷胡同里五臟俱全。坐著人力車聽著北京搖滾徜徉什剎海，在八大胡同穿行瞻仰恭王府的奢華，很high很北京。郊區的798藝術工廠，60后70后高調的contemporary加上舊工廠房頂上的毛主席萬歲，短短百年人生盡赤裸裸的展現在不大的街區，喜怒哀樂酸甜苦辣咸。 又見秋天，05年的夏天，春城的陽光燦爛。麗江古城的一米陽光，駝鈴叮當響。家家有水戶戶有花的大理，被工業化的氣息淹沒，只剩古城孑然一身，展示著大理的曾經。旅途中認識了位好姐妹，貴州人。我們無話不說，分別前在大理留了影還留了聯系方式，幾年過去了彼此便淡忘了。近來翻舊相簿翻到了和她的照片，才想起，一別已過三四年。妹妹，不知道遠方的你可好？
又見秋天，08年夏天的巴厘島，雖說在當地算是秋天或冬天，熱帶的炎熱總是消不掉的。古老的安雅皇宮離我們的想象相距十萬八千里，自助式午餐很有民族特色確實令大多游客倒足胃口，晚餐的臟鴨不怎樣，但是烤魚很贊的說。金巴蘭的黃昏很迷人，海鮮燒烤海灘燭光晚餐別有風情。出海時站在甲板上隨波浪起伏，聽著船上游客的尖叫倒是挺有趣，搖搖晃晃幸運的是沒有暈船。穿上拖拽傘的裝備和當地教練一起飛上天，在海面上空飄飄欲仙，下面的人看著好驚險，上面的人在上面享受著俯瞰海面全景的樂趣。早5點半搭快艇趕早看海豚，由于風浪大海豚未出現，倒是看到了道是無晴卻有晴的日出，便也不虛此行。 09年夏去了鳳凰古城，踏著古苗族的對歌聲，走古道過三關闖苗寨探苗家風情。古丈品茶苗寨賞歌舞，虹橋聽雨故居訪名人。沱江河上踏樁而過泛舟橫穿行，古城墻洞粗看巷景細觀城中人。奇石迭出的張家界，十里畫廊渾然天成，只是少了水的靈動。天子山藏龍臥虎，黃石寨居有閑人。寶峰之上高峽出平湖，韜光養晦，鋒芒不露，低調是湘西的一種態度。8月中旬至月底在上海的半個月，平淡無奇，除了在返校途中繞錯路。好在這段旅途不是那么枯燥無味，偶爾停頓的時候發現了無處不在的公共藝術，猶豫了幾秒，拿出相機，5個小人定格在畫面里。車中的播放器是6碟連放，至少2碟是chinese rock，還聽出來是同一個人的。聽這樣風格的歌的人，定是一直在旅途中的過客罷。
又見秋天，过去从没有开始，未来没有终点，这是希望的历程。我們在风中奔跑，自由穿行梦想，向着幸福的远方。世界是一幅无尽的画卷，等著我們去發現美，旅途始終艱辛，目的地指引著我們前行。 8/28/2009 偶感Random Feelings今天看到则故事：有个女孩交了个笔友叫米男，两人前后通信不下100封。女孩赏识米男的才气，米男欣赏女孩的单纯。当米男约她去海边散心时，却被女孩父母阻止。米男又提出他去女孩那玩，女孩的父母，包括她的好朋友们都认为米男不过是个陌生人，女孩没必要费尽心思去约见一个不知来历的陌生人。最后女孩父母拗不过女孩的意愿，教女孩写了封调查信给米男居住的村子的村长，以确定米男不是坏人。结果回信只是简短的4个字，查无此人。女孩的父母放心了，可女孩的心里充满了愧疚，因为她认出了，那是米男的字。 13日递签完后和叔叔去恒隆广场的新店参观了一圈，中午又是在小区附近的饭店吃饭。从恒隆回小区的路上得知中午是有人请客。对方比我们一家子先到了，有一位Jimmy是来谈生意的加拿大人。Jimmy也会和我闲扯几句，知道我是学AI的之后便对其他人来了句“也许2年后我们就能在报纸上看见她的名字了。。。”那个汗。。。几天后，下午从街上回来，楼下有几个外国小朋友由阿姨带着在一起玩。其中有个洋娃娃在我们的相机面前做出各种夸张的动作。楼下的保安逗他玩，他突然去踹那保安的椅子。想把保安从那椅子上请下来。我弟弟看着新鲜，边用相机录影边大笑不止。 19日和YYC约好回学校办理没办完的手续，我是搭叔叔公司里的车去的。早10点半到达约定地点看到一个貌似熟悉的面孔，后来想起来是在那次午餐时见到过，当时那同志还迟到了好一会。这一趟回校还真是传奇那，先是送我来的庄叔一直说“如果你再客气那这段旅程不是忒无聊了么。”中午也是人家请的客。然后就是在学校巧遇室友，还顺利拿回了图书馆的押金（在没有发票的情况下）。去宿舍办退宿时遥控器失踪只好罚款。我室友发现了车上的GPS一直说这玩意很高级，其实她不知道这玩意儿让我们在来的途中掉了好几次头甚至是在绕城公路出口倒车。还走错出口重新进高速再找到正确出口。只是庆幸没遇到个不耐烦的司机，一路上从我弟弟聊到了70后与80后对音乐看法的差异。只是以我长期当副驾驶的经验来说开车时不能多聊天（本人也有过惨痛经历），每个话题就点到为止了。 如果陌生人对你好，那多半是看在你认识的人的面子上。真的是这样么？ 这我后来仔细想了才明白。 在上海呆了12天，这期间我弟弟不但没欺负我，还和我联合起来捉弄大人。这和之前有个暑假他来南京的经历完全不同。看来我弟弟算是长大了。其实我总觉得他小小年纪就挺世故，看得出周围发生了什么也知道如何去做。当时我爸提醒我说，男孩子小时候的记忆总是最清晰的，小的时候谁对他好，他就会一辈子对谁好。我叔小时候在上海一个姑妈家住还在那上中学，当时有个姑妈对他很好，还有一个对他不怎么好。后来他经常去帮那个对他好的姑妈一家，对于对他不好的那家他理也不愿去理。不知道我那弟弟是认为我们对他不好还是对他很好。 回南京后搜了很多歌，找到了之前说的那首crush（原来是不一样的词，难怪没搜到），David Archuleta的。还发现了之前搜集过的专辑封面里的一张专辑beautiful seed。同名的那首歌很好听。有兴趣的可以去听下，我空间里的这首shelter也是该专辑里的。 8/1/2009 七月。咏叹调Sunny,gloomy,full,eclipse This is the weather of July. Happy, angry, sad, excited This is the mood of July. 七月，就如咏叹调，时而燥如沸腾，时而静若凝霜。刚进入盛夏便迎来初秋 今年的气候很反常 七月，去了趟凤凰古城。自某本小说中听说了古城之美后，总想着自己一定要去一趟。可惜边城的交通不便，只能从张家界沿途经过，囫囵游览一番。等到走进了这座古城，见识了庐山真面目，倒觉得有些失望。画中的凤凰城很美，有着边城的血色浪漫。虽说没有798厂房顶上“毛主席万岁”那样红色的标语，但每一处黄色砖墙都透着革命的气息。现实中的凤凰城呢，少了些浪漫，多了些市侩。早上5点多便有早起赶集的当地人，为了讨生活而忙碌着。古城也真的是太小了，9处景点，都是名人故居，大多挨在一起。从一个景点出发走几步就到了另一个景点，有点目不暇接。晚上在沱江边紧邻虹桥的一处客栈住下，在虹桥顶楼休息半刻准备走的时候下起了暴雨，我们摸到最近的一处餐馆吃晚饭，等结完帐离开的时候雨已停歇。本想在晚间把白天去过的地方再走一遍，谁想天黑后看不清路，加上路边摆出了很多小吃摊。我们走出了虹桥之后就不认的路了，只好在虹桥附近转悠。第二天清晨5点半出古城，小城还未苏醒。隐约能听得唢呐演奏的哀乐声，又有当地人仙游了。当时觉得晦气，不过没有看见出殡的队伍，或许只是我们幻听罢。 与我同行的人话很多，我真搞不懂怎么能和陌生人说那么多话的。不管认识还是不认识，都可以像朋友般交流。团里有2个和我一般大的女孩和3个90后男孩，他们原本不认识，在旅行途中5个人似乎成了一伙的。就连我妈也是，总像个长辈样时不时提醒着那5个孩子。我懒得和那5个人打招呼，有几回他们在说一些情况的时候我只是听着，表示不感兴趣。可能是我本人不太希望被注意的缘故吧。这5人中有一个是UBC的留学生，因为学生证不能被看懂差点不能买到学生票。有些时候险些把他当成一个我认识的人（也不知道怎么会在这时候想起这个我认识的人，平时都不在意的，只知道那个我认识的人9月份也要去曼城，以后在英国可能也会遇到）。 每一段旅途都有些难忘的人和事，即使这些人都是萍水相逢连名字都不知道。   PS:【02年7月 英法】英法修学旅行的“帅老师”Murray,给我们代了2节课，令大家终生难忘。在Magdalan的第二周课程是Hannah带我们，Murray代另一个班的课，我们也沮丧了一阵，连Hannah都看出来我们的心事。最后是Murray给我们这个班发结业证，我们每个人都与他合了影。 【04年7月 桂林】只记得南航的飞机晚点导致第一天晚上只睡了1小时。 【05年7月 云南】我们换了3次团（由于是地接的原因），有一个团里有10来位年轻人，他们玩接歌玩的很开心，我也想参与但是由于和他们不熟而作罢。 【07年7月 成都】30多小时的火车，抵达时早已疲惫不堪。当时是因为我妈和一位同事来成都出差顺便来玩，我们在成都报了旅行社，第二天就去了九寨黄龙。在成都那天我收到YXL的短信说她在准备去佛罗伦萨，不知现在的她怎样了。在九寨沟的时候行程安排去藏人家里做客，不知怎的就被邀上来对歌，吓了一跳。我不想唱就喝了3杯青稞酒，好在这对我来说比唱歌容易。青稞酒确实是减缓高原反应的良方。在那之后我就感觉不到在黄龙那样强的高原反应了。 【08年8月 巴厘岛 北京】在金巴兰海滩边玩拖拽伞的时候，有位当地教练在我身后操纵降落伞，我只需要欣赏风景。那位当地教练问了我几句，还说中国是好地方。到了高空还悠闲地唱起小曲，本以为自己恐高的，到了高处却又觉得这样飘着好惬意。最后一天早上乘快艇赶海时那位降落伞教练也在快艇上和我们聊天。 有一天是乘Bali Hai号游艇出海，在去洗手间的时候门口还有位长得很Indian的老外在等候，他过来和我搭讪，指了指一面墙说：“这里是入口”我看了看不对劲就说“这是面墙啊”他见穿帮了就又指了另一扇门说那是入口，被我驳回了。快抵达的时候我从甲板回到船舱，看见那老外就坐我们对面，由于有旁人在我们没打招呼。 至于北京之行么，在去北京的火车上，和我们同一卧铺厢的有个老外，我们刚上车便发现那老外已在下铺睡着了。我们只好轻手轻脚的不去打扰他。早上刚起床就快到站了，我们便连搭讪的机会都没有。 【09年7月 张家界】给我印象比较深的应该就是那些90后了，最后一天在森林公园游览前发现那位留学生无精打采的，几位大人（加上导游）便来关心他。我当时想如果他们这样来问我我肯定会觉得烦，可那留学生倒是都回答了。索道站排队的时候我们6个年轻人排到了一起，他们3个90后就在我后面，我塞上耳机不理会他们的谈话，也懒得去搭理他们。在机场时我正翻着一本《凤凰之恋》，回头时发现有人在身后边打电话边看着我这边，于是装着不知道继续翻书。 4/28/2009 CrisisI'm wondering who to trust and how to do things right. It's better to do nothing but sometimes "doing nothing" is also wrong.
I dono how to deal with it.
These days u r avoid talking to me because what I did before has caused ur friends' misunderstanding. I know it's what I did caused that but I never meant to do things in such reason. I never ever tried to control any of my friends by making friends with his/her other friends. Ur friends sensed like that which i cant control. I know u have to ignore me at this time bcos of the gossip but at the same time u also misunderstand me. I cud see u cannot trust in what I said.
Well, it was u that makes me feel like u dont regard me as friend. When I know ur friends gossip us like that, I also shocked and tried to explain it's nothing like what they thought. Gossip will terminate at wisdom but who can be that wisdom? I dont know how to solve such problem as its "both of us" involved in and I cud only hope that everything will be fine. The wisdom will appear before long. However, these days Im so upset as I feel like I lost my best friend and will never get u back again. OMG...who can tell me what to do?
Instead of being sad i kept studying recently, I thought i wont drown in the memory when Im busy. However, the truth is this piece of memory keeps tourching me that I dont feel like to do anything. Even i thought im not able to study or live a happy life.
As recently Iv lost some important ones in my life like pouring out most of the water in the bucket, my heart suddenly goes empty thus I felt a great loss. I tried to do everything to get it back but I can't. That is the crisis Im suffering. 2/16/2009 Rendezvous-->Encounter-->AccidentTo M.Wahid Never doubted that it was a wonderful experience to meet u by chance However, I cannot forgive u Because u betrayed ur promise.
Once in my blog, i said u had told many things I should think about carefully, but i dont wana think at that time. Is that because U decided to betray at that time but not dare to tell me
Surely, Im somewhat aggressive I cant forget a thing even in a long period of time As many people say, why u still remember?why u still care?It's all past. It was happened It has already happened We are not able to change history.
Asta la vista May god bless u have a wonderful life with ur fiance. Amen
To K.GhosT I know ur surname is not ghost.Just change it for fun. Gomenasai, for last time I release all my complaints on u, which was not ur fault at all. Gomenasai for showing my worst and saddest face to u, while u dint know what was happening. As U r my best friend ever I know u wont ask anymore if I was despair. But u r wondering about it, aren't u?
Sometimes I feel like u r not caring about me when I asked u what happened, ur most common answer is "Its nothing like that. Im just so busy." Do u know this answer leads to the neglect...
Thank u for helped me although u seldom helps(as sometimes u r really busy...i dont blame on U by this)
To Craig, Harsh, Eric, etc. Thank u all for helping me alot....in lots of cases
Meeting people is common in our life Some were rendezvous which were full of happiness Some were encounter which could be either surprise or tragedy Some were accident which shocked both of us Sometimes rendezvous could be accident While sometimes accident could become encounter Who knows whether accident would become rendezvous then? If miracle happens And sometimes, miracles do happen 12/17/2008 对不起，我不再爱你了Im sorry. I dont love u no more.对不起，我不再爱你了 我不会再因为你跟谁走在一起 I wont pay attention to those unecessary information 对不起，我不再爱你了 This is just because...I dont love you no more... Dec.1st--As time passing byToday is the 1st day of December. 20days later we will have the x-mas holiday, and 31 days later the new year will come. Year 2008 is a memorable year for you and me. No matter how different we are.
In the previous 11 months, I experienced the happiest thing, the saddist thing, the best thing and the worst thing. I met so many nice friends, from india,paki,indonesia,deutschland etc. I suffered lots of problems on both studying and friendship thing. In Feburary i met my best friend 4 ever when i was upset. "When i 1st saw you on 'Meet new ppl', i could figure out u r such a nice friend. Although u r really a flirtie and social butterfly, U r still trustworthy and nice. When I know the fact that ur friends thought u were helpful, I could say my 6th sence is right. Later some problems came out during the talking. Bcoz we are always busy. Bcoz we thought we know each other well but indeed we dont. One day I sent many msg to u which annonced u seriously. u said tht really hurts u. From then on we couldnt trust each other as be4. I dono whether we cud be good friends as usual. I think, at least, we dont want to lose a nice friend. However, Im not sure whether i cud be qualified as a nice friend in ur mind ever."
In May(it is the spring), I got to know another nice paki friend. This one is the most unforggetable one. "I still remember u scribbled 'why u cant remember me when i changed my nickname on orkut?listen carefully. I am M.Wahid.' i was shocked and felt bothered. Hain Jiii, you really like teasing. And even joked that u loves me(this is really really a joke). However, u r the friend who care for me the most. Everyday u greet me with ur creative words. Im really happy to read your funny sms, no matter how sad i was tht day. This had become our daily entertainment. One day be4 ur leaving, u were talking with ur chinese frds there while i was keeping teasing u by sms. I suggested to have a debate. And u told me 'it really works. Thank u very much.' I was happy tht i helped u. When ur chinese friends mistook me as your gf, u didnt deny it, indeed u said 'its my secret'. I dono wut u think then. Im satisfied with your answer. It is really clever."
"July 4th was your birthday, as we are the best frds and u asked me about the birthday present be4, I prepared for the birthday gift. Then u wish i could come to your birthday party. However, you know, it takes a long time from my place to your place. So i said i couldnt guarentee it. On that day u got ur present and said nearly 100 'thank u' to me. But u also said ur heart broken when u didnt see me there. I know id rather believe in u. The only thing I cud say is:Gomenasai."
At the end of July my best paki friend went back to his hometown, and he wont back to china bcos he finished his study career here. "Now 4 months passed by, i seldom hear from u bcos u r always busy. I dono whether it is your excuse. But no matter how rarely we contact, we are still good friends. The only thing i wana tell u is: I miss u.(Just for friendship~~)"
In September, as freshmen came to our campus, and movie club carried out the <crazy samurai>. I got to know many nice freshmen. SY,YTL,TW,FQL,ZSD,LX...etc.etc. It is the best actors who lead to the success of the opera. Thank you all.
As time goes by, December has come, Novermber has gone. As time passing by, new friends have come, old friends have gone. As time goes by, we remember the happiness and forget the sorrow. As time passing by, we embrace the future life and remember the past.
10/26/2008 I love u. However, I didnt tell.--From Xiaonei.comThe girl said "I love u". The boy smiled. Again girl said:"I truely love u." Boy remained smile. 10/25/2008 Silence.Care.Dusty1.你，真的在乎过么？
虽然你说过，你在乎。可是，我不认为那是在乎。至少，是不够在乎。
如果你在乎，你会回答我“当我真正在乎一个人的时候，我一定会告诉你”么？
如果你在乎，你会表现的如此不在乎么？
2.我在乎过么？
如果我在乎，又为什么会误解你
如果我在乎，又为什么会难以相信你
但是，如果我不在乎，又为什么在你不在乎的时候，顿起唏嘘
3.Why its so hard to enter ur life?
Why its so gloomy?
今天一直好安静
好可怕
真的害怕朋友们再也不在乎有没有我这个朋友
真的害怕我成了可有可无
真的害怕会失去一切的一切
4.虽然，但是，于是
不想这样消极的继续
这难以释怀之轻
这难以负担之重
10/11/2008 Prisoner of memory回忆的囚徒最近一个礼拜又发生了好多意想不到的事：Kul因为一些莫名其妙的想法经常不和人说话，Ray骑车被撞伤，Abhi在上海教外语要到15日才回学校，database作业让我纠结了一个礼拜，音乐剧排练一直不顺利...今晚南京同学的聚会，去的只有少数几个人。从他们的说话内容及态度来看，我深深感觉到什么是80后与90后的差距。
整个一晚上我一直在听同一首歌，日剧《last friends》里的主题曲。想起聚会时大家提起的高中时的事情，关于我们共同认识的一些人，关于陈文忠老师的癌症（这是真是假？），关于路宽老师为了学生的利益和学校力争不惜放弃自己教导主任的位置....前几天在校内网上看到附中的一些地点的照片，90后拍的。我们都能准确的记得我们当初的教室在哪里，当初的课堂上发生了哪些事。昨天还在校内上分享了某牛津学生在christ church的采风，我惊讶于我居然能记得当初和高一学长学姐划竹筏的那条河，和另两个尝鲜爱好者打过板球的那个大学公园，还有一些标志性建筑。
周六上午偷得浮生半日闲，便翻出带来的影碟，一部是岩井俊二的《情书》，另一部是伊朗片《小鞋子》。看了前一部，只觉得渡边博子就像大多数走不出回忆的人一样，相信着天堂来信。只是她没想到的是，在那里有一个与她男朋友藤井树同名同姓的女孩子会给她回信。而那个藤井树和渡边博子长得十分相像。两个藤井树曾经是初中同学。或许渡边博子成为藤井树的女友只是因为她长得像另一个藤井树，他初中时代暗恋的，喜欢捉弄的女孩藤井树。藤井树活在渡边博子的记忆中，而在藤井树一生的记忆中只有一个藤井树以及另一个长得像藤井树的女友。结尾藤井树发现了男孩藤井树在借书卡背后的女孩画像，在打算把它寄出去的时候，又因为不好意思决定把画像变成藤井树之间的秘密。两个活在自己的记忆中的人，一个活在别人记忆中的人，造就了这么一个离奇而美丽的故事。
PS：今天几个好朋友都莫名其妙的失踪了，到晚上聚会结束我收到Kul的回复：我在吴山广场和中国学姐享受中国食物...
之后在msn上撞见好久不见的Frankie，聊了很久，结果他还是有事先离开。当然他也抛给我很多问题，我一时不太乐意去想。
Ray还是那个开朗的Ray，不过他莫名其妙的怀疑我对什么人有意思确实让我有点恼火。
还有，下午陪sophie逛了半天街，权当是放松吧。
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prisoner of love
歌手：宇多田光 专辑：prisoner of love i'm a prisoner of love prisoner of love just a prisoner of love i'm just a prisoner of love a prisoner of love 平気な顔で嘘をついて 笑って嫌気がさして 榮ばかりしようとしていた ないものねだりブルース 皆安らぎを求めている 満ち足りてるのに夺い合う 爱の影を追っている 退屈な毎日が急に辉きだした あなたが现れたあの日から 孤独でも辛くても平気だと思えた prisoner of love prisoner of love i'm a prisoner of love 病める时も健やかなる时も 岚の日も晴れの日も共に歩もう i'm gonna tell you the truth 人知れず辛い道を选ぶ 私を応援してくれる あなただけを友と呼ぶ 强がりや欲张りが无意味になりました あなたに爱されたあの日から 自由でもヨユウでも一人じゃ虚しいわ oh もう少しだよ don't you give up oh 见舍てない絶対に 残酷な现実が二人を引き裂けば より一层强く惹かれ合う いくらでもいくらでも顽张れる気がした ありふれた日常が急に辉きだした 心を夺われたあの日から prisoner of love stay with me, stay with me my baby, say you love me 一人にさせない 9/27/2008 dread n fugitive mind...I dono wut happened to me. I cant explain anything clearly. I can't do a single right thing.I need to say sorry frequently.
I could say tht is not the real me. Im afraid of this slight change. I'v become a stranger of myself.
I dono why i could become tht jealousy. I dono why i was cursing..just bcos i want to!
I dono why i decide anything without thinking carefully.
Yeah I'v hurted some of my frds...Yeah thts true...cos everytime i feel tht they dont value me....why i feel like tht?
PS:im bit sensitive this time...im just typical.....
frds forgive the poor me for these messy words.....cos i dono wut is happening on me...wut kinda chemisty like this?? 9/14/2008 Today,Mid autumn day...This is not a complimant of anyone...I wrote this just bcos im feeling gloomy...n dono wut to believe in...Anyway its a nice day today..i saw the full moon came out after the rain... 1.Yesterday morning i saw one thing which i don wana see...In fact tht is non of my business. However,for fulfilling my curiousty, I finally dare to ask him the question. Naturally, he replied to me:"It's a nothing." Then i kept silent, cos i dono who i could believ in.I just pretend to act as "i don care whoever it is." I remember the evening be4 yesterday he joked:"Hav a nice dream..of me..."then laughing as an ass...Guess wut happened...i got a nightmare tht night....He was the one who gona kil me in tht nightmare...how ironic it was.When i explained this to him yesterday he felt surprised to hear abt this...hh.. 2.Today when i logged on my msn i saw his status-"idle".In fact i don wana talk wit him a lot. Then just greeted"good morning,how r u" and quickly went away...1 mins later his words appeared "Hey happy mid-autumn festival"...Hah...I remember i'v sent this kinda wish to him 1 or 2 days ago. Then he asked "how to say this in chinese?" For im such a kind person i gave him the detailed answer(even with the tones of pinyin), regardless of wut he wana do with this chinese saying. Soon he told me it was bcoz tht he would go to meet his chinese frds in his campus. Thts why he wana know the chinese saying......OMG,I'v become a tool for him to study chinese...Thts not wut i expected... 3.These days I saw several ppl wrote essays abt "year 3 students r leaving". I quickly viewed some of the pics taken in airport. I could see the emotions on their parents' faces. It's a mixture of happiness and sorrow, smiles and tears. Most of their frds cried and embraced each other within these limited minutes. I dono wut im feelin now..Yea 1 year later i might be under the same situation..I don wana see anyone cries at tht time cos if they cried, I wil be affected with this sad atmosphere also. I hope to see lots of my friends there to see me off...just to say"Have a nice new beginning in liverpool" with a smile like sunshine. PS:Today one of my roomate's classmates send us mooncakes...They r ice-cream mooncakes...So tasty hahah...Wish everyone 中秋节快乐！ ---------------------------------------------------------------------- Negative things --selwyn Listen baby Why then do you see all the negative things, in me? All the time everybody say that you and me are over Why then do you see all the negative things, in me? Girl remember when, we made our promises? Why then do you see all the negative things, in me? 9/7/2008 everything not familiar...Today when i arrived the campus to get my new textbooks, I saw lots of new faces. I know most of them were my juniors. They enjoy their times together, ask their seniors for help....everything similar to that what we did last year. I dono whether the history is reacting on them...when they ask me how to find the schedule,what is EAP,Tutorial etc... One new SIPNC(SIP Neighbourhood Centre) was located near our dormitory. Its like a...luxury shopping center....even the wenxing plaza has totaly changed.I havnt found anything familiar to last year yet. The location of lockers changed,our environment changed,even our friends changed. I couldnt recognize my friends at once when i met them today...where'av they gone?? Everything unfamiliar now...i should adapt this again....OMG! 8/22/2008 听，风的声音--画笔下的那些人一.永不消失的彩虹 暑假里新发现一部台湾偶像剧《翻滚吧！蛋炒饭》。故事中有一道海边永不消失的彩虹。 记得7月2日晚浙大聚会的时候突然下了几分钟的暴雨，一边还是雷电交加，另一边却出现了半条彩虹。我们一起拿出相机来拍(Kul的那张拍的最好就被sabrina要过去了)。后来当我看到米麒麟为了小舒把海边那道永不消失的彩虹画了下来的时候，我才发现在我们的生活中缺少的不是奇迹，而是欣赏奇迹的眼睛。 我以为天是黑的/你忽然放了烟火 二.对不起，我来不了了 7月4日，Frankie生日，TA希望我能参加。不过由于行程安排我就没打算去。于是将我的一幅作品及我的祝福寄了过去以表歉意。这或许是TA在中国这最后一年唯一的遗憾了。 25日Frankie发了条短信问候我，原先这号码是TA送给了TA的朋友的，结果那天TA又要了回来，说等TA上了飞机之后再把它送出去。真搞不懂既然送了别人的东西为何又要了回来。我也不知道该感谢TA那么关心我还是责怪TA这么做不对。Only said:"Have a nice journey see u soon."之后TA就怪我没有来机场送TA以及TA的朋友们（那天sam也在机场，居然连Sam也怪我没来送TA）。最后飞机起飞前TA发的一条短信简直让我无话可回答。 Sam九月份还会来中国继续TA的学业。而Frankie则提前修完了学分回到了TA的祖国。Lets just leave everything on fate. 怎么你每个动作我都想要懂 直觉反应你是我的奇迹 ----------------------------------------------------------------- 潘玮柏 转机 7/7/2008 The rhapsody before farewell(2)July 2nd
What a horrible weather.....
When we entered the library the heavy rain scoured down to the ground and slushed our clothes. The only thing we can do was just wait in the library. Sabrina was in campus at that time but she couldnt find the library, and she told me she brought her sunglasses and cap but she didnt bring her umbrella...Around 5:30pm i received kool's message said:" Sorry i just arrived at dormitory. Wil come within 5 mins." Haha we were thinking that "we r able to get umbrellas and go out without caught in the heavy rain".so i told him to take 2 umbrellas with him. At that very moment Helen was so tired that she was yawning and worrying about what to do next. Sabrina was calling her friend Ray to come.
At last we all met in the library. Kool brought 2 umbrellas and lend us one. He himself held his umbrella in hand but didn't use it. R said this is bcoz kul liked to be caught in the rain....what a weird guy. Rules are rules, kool should treat us for dinner for his late...and his absence last time(a joke,haha).Sabrina suggested to go to the largest canteen in zheda for our dinner...Our impression to that canteen was:" It is really large..But the food is terrible..."
The rain stopped after the dinner. And a rainbow appeared with the dusk. Soon the lightning crossed the sky.
Sabrina and R kept arguing. We the other 3 ppl could only leave comments to their argument. On the way to the canteen their argument kept going on...so we the other 3 ppl left them alone and start chatting ourselves(seems not so much chatting...then our concerntration moved to R and Sabrina's argument). The duration of their argument was really...long...
In the end we took photos together. And said farewell to each other. Sabrina wil go to UK this summer. Kool would leave hangzhou for his hometown on July 3rd. So they didnt join us in the next day. My friend and me left hangzhou at 3pm on july 3rd.The rhapsody came to an end...
Farewell my friends. See you guys next semester.
The rhapsody before farewell(1)July 2nd One person sent one message when i arrived at hangzhou east station.It said:" Hey vic im out buying sth important. Im bit in trouble." The number is unknown. I was bit confused about what is happening. Meanwhile i was wondering who this was cos he/she also called me vic.After my uncle treated us the lunch and sent us to the Zijingang Hotel. I received another phone call by a "stranger". When i answered that call that guy kept on speaking english.I was wondering whom that is on the phone...Soon he told me he is Arslan, the SuPeRsTaR, also one of my indian friends. I was surprised and thank for his greeting. Still i felt it weird that he got my mobile number without asking me for that. Ritika called me for 3 times to ask me when i would arrive at zheda campus(cos i told her i would come be4 i informed Kool).At that time i was having rest with my friend Helen in the room. She laughed in surprise cos i answered the phone call in english and asking about "can u speak chinese?" When arrived campus Ritika called me to come to cuibai 4(her dormitory) bcos she was washing her goods and packing for leave. My friend also got to know this information. It was unexpected that we found qingxi building and ziyun building but didnt find cuibai building at the very beginning... Ritika told us lots of funny things about the 6th floor in cuibai 4. we talked about study,daily life and some...anecdotes in campus. My friend was like asking and answer questions in the English corner(uhauha). I was always talking with Ritika in her dormitory while my friend only ask some general questions. It was a pity that Imran was in library(maybe) bcos he would have his chinese test soon(i should say its his pity that he lost the chance to practise chinese with me),while Pooja left campus on July 1st...Arslan sent me one message asking me where i was. However i didnt see that message at that moment. I should say sorry for my ignorence. 6/23/2008 (轉）我眼中的南京和杭州 --南大某学生（不愧是南大的,哈哈）在中国，从古至今，曾经出现过无数的著名城市。悠久如西安，宏大如北京，羞涩如苏州，艳丽如扬州，秀丽如桂林，宜人如大连，莽撞如上海，繁华如香港。然而，上海和香港都太过于年轻；西安和北京，除了城市，还是城市；而桂林和大连，除了山水还是山水；两者都不缺的扬州和苏州，缺少的是一种应有的大气。真正把历史和自然山水完美融合在一起的，唯有南京和杭州。 南京城和杭州城都依山傍湖，紧邻大江，自古以来都是江南繁华之地，同为全国六大古都(注：长期以来，我国一直有六大古都之说，直到1988年，在河南省安阳市召开了中国古都学会常务理事会会议，才把安阳市列为中国古都之一，这样中国有了七大古都之说)，如今又分别是中国出产院士数最多的两省的省会。更为巧合的是，把一张杭州地图和一张南京地图放在一起，将其中的一张旋转180度，可以看到两张地图的惊人相似：钱塘江和长江，西湖和玄武湖，西湖风景区的群山和钟山风景区的山，江、湖、山的分布几乎如出一辙。 如此耀眼的历史和如此优越的自然条件，足以令其它众多的城市羡慕不已。 再进一步来说，南京和杭州又不尽相同。 同样是湖和山，南京以山胜，而杭州以湖名。南京因为紫金山而成其“虎踞龙盘”之势，杭州因为西湖而闻名于千里之外。事实上，很多人根本不知道在南京城里还有一个和西湖湖面面积相当的玄武湖；而在杭州，西湖风景区的群山却要以西湖来为自己命名。没有了钟山，南京不再是南京；没有了西湖，杭州也不再成其杭州。 由于分别秉承了山的秀气和湖水的灵气，南京的历史和杭州的历史也有着极大的差异。名山适合埋忠骨，而秀水可以用来养诗性。南京的历史，主要是政治史；而杭州的历史，主要是文化史。不管是秦淮河中飘荡的歌声，还是明故宫总统府的森严围墙，还是中华门外雄健的避邪，无不彰显着那个朝代的痕迹。而在杭州，无论是曾经镇压白娘子的雷锋塔，还是由两位大文豪主持修建的长堤，还是永远香火缭绕的灵隐寺，都主要和文化有关。 这也造就了两个城市之间截然不同的气质和命运。由于山的豪情和忧郁，南京虽然地处江南，但是政治地位的显赫让南京成了最具北方城市风格的江南城市（相对应的是，扬州是最具江南风格的江北城市）；而由于水的柔情和妩媚，地处江南的杭州则于苏州一道成了江南的代名词。 据说南京是中国做过首都次数最多的城市（我没有认真研究过历史），虽然这些朝代都很短命。显赫的王权带给了南京无比的荣耀（就算在今天，虽只为副省级城市，南京在国内也是政治地位很高的城市，超过了直辖的天津和重庆，更远在杭州之上），也给南京人民带来了深深的灾难。南京恐怕也是被屠城次数最多的城市吧！远的不说，近代以来留给我们的就有太平天国时期以及抗日战争时期的两次大规模的血腥记忆。南京的陵墓也太多太密，从明孝陵到中山陵再到雨花台，几乎遍布了整个城市。走在南京城的大街小巷上，常常让我感觉到一种说不出的压抑和阴冷，而南京的夜晚更是黑暗的可怕（这当然不是指南京没有路灯）。 而杭州虽然也处处都有遗迹、典故，却绝对不会给我们如此沉重的心理压力。白娘子的动人传说，苏小小的低声吟唱，虽然不无凄凉，但是并不悲壮，更无血腥。至于苏东坡的“欲把西湖比西子，淡妆浓抹总相宜”，林和靖的“疏影横斜水清浅，暗香浮动月黄昏”以及柳永的“有三秋桂子,十里荷花”更是把杭州推向了文人心中的至美之地。在杭州建都的南宋虽然柔弱，可是也击毙了让欧人恐慌万分称之为上帝之鞭的蒙哥大汗，而且南宋时期的临安留给我们更多的是不无艳丽甚至浪漫的想象。与南京的“商女不知亡国恨，隔江犹唱后庭花”不同，杭州古巷里面飘出来的是“小楼一夜听春雨，深巷明朝卖杏花”的唯美诗句。 深重的灾难让南京成了在中国堪称最具悲情的城市，这是南京的荣光，却也日渐成了南京的现实的负担。根植于南京的魏晋名士的风骨和《红楼梦》的多情至今仍让无数人向往，但是太多的血腥记忆让南京和南京人几乎不堪重负。这种悲情的历史基因早已深深的浸入当地人骨子里的，而且，南京的这种氛围不断地同化着一代又一代的外来人口，而不是被他们改变。
如果说南京的历史是铁与血，那么杭州的历史更多的是情和泪。如果说南京市座男性化的城市，那么杭州则是十分女性化的城市。南京摔不开厚重的历史包袱，更象一个缓慢、厚重的老人。而杭州虽然也有悠久的历史，可是这历史本身并没有给杭州太大的压力，更加没有成为前进的负担，所以杭州更象是一个轻快、艳丽的青年。 在新一轮的经济竞争中，南京无疑相对衰弱了，既比不上南方的深广，也不如省内的苏锡，这是南京的尴尬。而在官方的视野中向来不能进入全国十大城市阵营的杭州在经济发展中却蒸蒸日上，杭州民间的富裕程度已远在南京之上。在杭州近郊，是成片的农民建造的别墅，而在南京近郊，和广大的中西部农村没有太大的区别。更为重要的是，两地人民在经济、创业的观念上面的差距也越来越大。 在南京的大学四年的生活虽然没有带给我太大的惊喜，可是也有不少的收获。那么多的同学的友情，是我的至为宝贵的精神财富，而南大的老师的声声教诲，注定会让我受益无穷。有机会还是想回南京和学校去看看。 6/22/2008 一些人，和一些事一天晚上無聊，看見george在jonathan的facebook頁面上留了言，于是也胡亂留了一句“您是不是從地球上消失了...”結果第二天就看到Jonathan的回復：“從地球上消失？豈有此理？...”之后Jonathan就又“從地球上消失了”...
KOol同學在消失了一兩個禮拜之后又在一個我沒想到的時候出現，倒是把我嚇了一跳。還在我睡午覺的時候問我在不在線。我只好說“i am out...”
最近要復習考試，哎，煩...不過考完試就能和幾個老朋友見面了，挺爽。
speaking 考試很黃很暴力，和我一起考試的另兩個人口音很不準確....
偶爾認識了sarmad N和mehmood W...剛見面時覺得這兩個人奇奇怪怪的，后來一個成了我最好的朋友，一個成了我亦敵亦友的人。
One always call himself "pirate" and ask me to keep distance. The other is always kind to me.
在qq上遇到杉，才知道他也有校內，又了解了一些關于他的情況。他說這個暑假想回南京，可是他的父母建議他留在意大利。他正在矛盾中。
很多高中的學弟學妹都畢業了，在校內上也看到了他們的身影。想起一年前葡萄球菌邀我入校內的情景....真是...長江后浪推前浪
I dono how to write the ending. So lets end here.
Good luck with ur exams. Viel Erfolg!
6/3/2008 Why we are drifting+some chaosI don't know.
I don't know.
I'm wondering.
---Thesis
I'm immature. So I can't understand why adults do things like there is always a regulation.
Habitats
Ecosystem
etc.
What's the significance of those?
Why they exist in a specticular way?
Once our biology teacher said:"Human beings are changing the world."
Another biology teacher said:"Human beings influence the world instead of changing the world."
Every species is drifting bcoz of the change of ecosystem.---Hypothesis
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(This is only a draft. So no body parts and conclusion. If u wana get any result. Plz try to conduct an experiment.)
PS:This year is the 103rd anniversary of the birth of scientist Gao Shiqi....I found that when i went to the SIP library last weekend... |
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